Jin Xiu's Journey

China In My Mind In my mind, I am in China. I am holding you, your tiny little hand, in mine. You are not sure, but I am. Your beautiful dark eyes stare at me, in wonder. I say to you, for the first time, hand on heart...'Mama'. You touch my face, and again I say...'Mama' - Hopeful you can understand. What memories you hold in your heart - I will never know. What fears, what loneliness, what hurt has lived in you - you cannot tell. But, I can tell you - that time is done. In my mind, I am in China. Your Grandma is crying, and we are, in awe. Your apple red cheeks glow with the first smile given, just for us. The enormity of the moment hanging - Just above. The finality, sure and content in my heart. In my mind, I am in China. We are a family and waiting for you across the ocean Many cousins, Aunts and Uncles long awaiting you. A family tree you join, A place for you, from time beginning. Today my arms do not hold you - Your smile is still unseen - Still, you live in my heart, in my mind, In this world!...Somewhere. The calendar crawls, and the days, trudge - a flicker of news propels me. And again, in my mind, I am in China... I am in love... And you are forever welcomed home. ----S.A.J.